Dragonfly Within: My Journey Through Narcissistic Recovery

There was a time when I didn’t even recognize the woman I had become. I had lost myself little by little—quietly giving parts of me away just to keep peace, to be loved, to survive. I was emotionally drained, spiritually empty, and mentally exhausted. Life felt like walking on eggshells, constantly second guessing myself, shrinking to fit into someone else’s comfort zone. That’s the reality of being in a relationship with a narcissist—confusing, depleting, and painful.

But deep within me, something sacred remained. Even when I felt lost, God hadn’t let go. Like the dragonfly—so often a sign of growth and transformation—I was in the process of becoming. I just didn’t know it yet.

The Awakening

My healing didn’t start with a big moment. It began with small ones. Quiet realizations. Honest prayers. Tears cried on hikes, in the car, or in the dark when no one else could hear. I began to recognize the lies I had believed: that I wasn’t enough, that I was too emotional, too needy, too broken. And little by little, God began to show me the truth

I wasn’t too much—I had just been with someone who couldn’t hold space for my light. I wasn’t broken—I had been wounded. And wounds can heal.

The Process of Recovery

Narcissist recovery is not linear. There are days when you feel strong, and others when you feel like you’re back at square one. But each step forward matters. For me, healing meant learning how to trust my own voice again. It meant facing the shame, the gaslighting, the emotional manipulation—and calling it what it was. It meant surrounding myself with safe people, getting support, and not rushing the process. I had to unlearn the false beliefs I picked up in survival mode. I had to rebuild my identity outside of what someone else projected onto me.

The Dragonfly Within

Dragonflies don’t start out soaring—they begin underwater, hidden, unseen. But over time, they rise. That’s what my healing felt like—and invisible process, quiet and sacred, until one day I had the strength to fly again.that happens when we choose healing over hiding, truth over denial, and wholeness over fear.

Today, I coach others through this same process—not from a place of perfection, but from experience. I’ve lived it. And I know that if God could bring me out of that emotional wilderness, He can do it for you too.

You’re Not Alone

If you’re reading this and still trying to make sense of the pain, the confusion, the exhaustion—I want you to know this: You’re not crazy. You’re not weak. You’re not too broken to heal. What you’ve been through is real. And there is life beyond this.

There is peace, joy, and freedom waiting for you.

And most of all, there is a God who sees you, knows you, and has not forgotten you.

Let the dragonfly within you rise.